Some Q & A from your favorite piece of T & A; this time a round-up of Member Masters questions about orgasms…
When you’re under a No Orgasm Order and another Master insists you come, what do you do? …Is it the first order you obey, or what?
My number one order is to do as Blackie wishes and he says my purpose is to serve all my Masters, so I’m to satisfy both directives; obviously this is not possible…
Like many of my tasks which are (or at least seem) conflicting, I do my best and take my punishments for those things that I fail.
In the case of No Orgasms, if I please the one who gave me that order, I then take my punishment from the one who I failed to please by not having an orgasm; if I have the orgasm(s), I please that Master and take my deserved punishment from the one whose rule I’ve broken.
And then, in any case, I suffer Blackie’s punishment as well.
But aren’t you then choosing which Master to obey — at least by taking the punishment you fear less?
Honestly, I can try that, but there’s two things wrong with that theory…
One, Masters know (and Member Masters are given) the ways to manipulate and break me… Most of my regular Masters — at least those who care to have me orgasm — know how to take or force my orgasms against my will.
Two, any failure to please one Master means I have broken Blackie’s Golden Rule: to serve and please any Master to whom I have been given. The consequences for that are not pleasant. So even if I could try to choose the lesser of two evils, I’m outnumbered and outmatched on all fronts (and backs lol).
So, in all honesty, I’m simply living in the moment, trying to do the best I can — and dreading the outcomes for failure.
Does that mean an order not to orgasm will automatically be broken?
No, not at all!
I do try to do my best, including informing Blackie, all Member Masters, and any Masters I might be serving during that No Orgasm Order time frame. While individual Master motivations and desires differ, some prefer to respect one Masters rule. Also Blackie himself may choose to assist such an order by enforcing it at home and by limiting my service elsewhere — and some Masters who insist upon a No Orgasm Order will also compensate Blackie for ensure such orders are guaranteed.
…But even under the most strident supervised masturbation and monitored use, I am a greedy slut who seeks a release and can become so over-worked from all her use and play that I’ll suddenly, humiliatingly, find myself in the throes or orgasm. It’s happened from just breast play on numerous occasions. (However it happens, I can assure you that I am punished for my sluttiness!)
So it’s never a sure thing, and that’s why denied orgasms and No Orgasm Orders are so difficult and even painful.
What’s worse: Being ordered to have no orgasms or having forced orgasms?
The worst is disappointing a Master and, therefore by having disobeyed Blackie’s Golden Rule, disappointed him.
Personally speaking, however…
Both suck. But, in general, forced orgasms are the worst — unless the No Orgasm Order is longer than a week… Then it’s really dependent upon everything else I’ve been tasked to do during that time.
I’m not trying to be evasive; it’s all very subjective and situational.
I don’t understand how forced orgasms can be such a big deal — I’m not even sure there can really be such a thing! Who doesn’t want an orgasm?!
Orgasms are intensely personal things. To have one taken from you when you do not want to give it is an extremely violating and usually humiliating experience.
Plus most forced orgasm experiences are not simply a matter of taking or forcing one. …The combination of multiple intense humiliating violating orgasms is exhausting on every level and even physically painful.
Truth be told the whole topic of how orgasms are taken, what happens when orgasms are denied — how orgasms have and are still used to condition and control me is very very complicated…
The details of that will likely have to be broken down into multiple posts in the future. Stay tunned, as they say *wink*
