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Friday, August 27th, 2010

The Foreshadowing Of Big Breast Abuse

Back when Blackie & I were dating — in that early stage of infatuation & insecurity — I teased him with an observation about the other women I’d seen him out with. Most of them were members of the itty-bitty-tittie-committee, and I, well, I have 36Es. So my teasing was as much about being reassured that he found me attractive, even if I feared I wasn’t his usual “type.”

I distinctly remember saying to him, “Well, you clearly subscribe to the ‘More than a mouthful is wasted’ philosophy… So I guess my ample charms are, if not an actual waste, wasted on you.”

I also distinctly remember his reply. “I assure you they are desired in equally ample proportion — and they certainly will not go to waste.”

At the time, my ego delightfully wrapped it around me as warm reassurance that he found me sexy. But now, I’ve come to understand that he meant that literally: No part of my breasts shall be wasted, no small space shall go without it’s attentions, use & abuse.

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Saturday, August 14th, 2010

Protected: The Making Of A Pain Slut

I’m often asked if I really get off on pain. The truth is now I do — at least to the kinds of punishments Blackie prefers to give — but it wasn’t always that way.

I’ve always loved a lot of breast play (my nipples are red-hot express lines direct to my cunt), but spanking, paddling, clamps, clothespins, hot wax, rope burn, slaps, etc. — on my breasts or anywhere — and maintaining difficult positions was all definitely more pain than pleasure in the beginning.

While Blackie and I quickly discovered that I naturally became aroused by his inherent male powers over me, actual pain wasn’t so readily overcome by demonstrations of masculinity. Not even when combined with my desire to please him.

But Blackie knew just what to do.

As I’ve mentioned before, many D/s relationships are based on a submissive’s dependence. Not only simple acts of comfort or kindness, but a cleverly calculated combination of pleasure and denial.

For example, rubbing my pussy while spanking, paddling or cropping my ass, sends my brain a flood of conflicting input… Am I feeling pleasure or pain? Which am I feeling more of? It was horribly confusing…

But Blackie also used denial to make sure my brain and body were led from confusion and rescued — he made sure that the only time I experienced sexual pleasure was when I was experiencing pain at his hand.

Sure, I could suck his cock and get him off; but I never felt his hands or mouth or cock on me unless he was also hurting me in his desired fashion.

While he may have focused on one sort of pain or use at a time, the method was the same: pain always came with pleasure and pleasure never came without pain.

Until I began to have sort of Pavlov’s dog response. Eventually I learned to connect the pain (as in our earlier example) of being cropped with the euphoria of arousal and eventual orgasm.

No cropping, no coming; no pain, no gain. By George, my brain and body finally got it!

So much so, that when I was simply told to assume the position for a cropping, my cunt would drool! I might also be trembling with fear and crying in anticipation of the pain; but I was wet too. Even the next day’s bruises, welts, and sore spots became aphrodisiacs… Memories of what had been done, to me and by me; how I’d been undone.

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Thursday, May 27th, 2010

This Was My First Leash & Collar

Like in this photo from GirlFolio, my first experience with a leash and collar was nothing fancy, nothing planned, and it certainly wasn’t all dark & scary looking…

Getting dressed one morning for work, I’d simply began messing around with Blackie, trying to get a little attention from him — some sexual attention. I was brat-ish, prancing myself in various forms of undress in front of him, teasing him that he should be late for work.

When he paid me no mind, I reached for the white shirt he’d so carefully pressed, slid it on, but left it unbuttoned and open, and teased him while he shaved at the sink.

When I still didn’t get any reaction from him, I behaved even more like a spoiled brat. I got his tie, placed it around my neck, made a loose knot and started swinging the tail of tie around like a burlesque stripper would a feather boa, and, other hand on my nip, I taunted him that a real man would pounce all over this.

I caught his eye in the mirror before he turned to face me slowly — I saw a spark there and thought I was going to get my way, so I giggled and backed up towards the bedroom.

He charged after me, grabbed me by the tie, then grabbed another handful of my hair and drew me close. Still pulling my hair, he tipped my head back and said, “You wanted my attention, spoiled brat, now you’ve got it.”

I thought he was going to kiss me — but he let go of my hair and led me by the tie to the bed, where he then sat down. He looked at me intensely. I was excited, expecting a divine session of being ravaged on the bed. But instead — in an instant — he’d dropped the tie and flipped me over his knee.

Over my girdle he spanked my bottom. Hard.

I yelp and squirmed in shock — then anger. But he held onto me with one arm, locking me in place for the bare handed spankings that continued to come.

He said nothing until he was done. When he let me up, all he said was “I told you now was not the time; maybe next time you’ll listen to me.”

Then he returned to the bathroom to restart his shave, but he ducked his head back into the bedroom for a minute to say, “Wear the shirt & tie today; I’ll meet you for lunch at your office at 12:30.”

And I stood there too stunned to say anything.

(To be continued.)

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Thursday, March 25th, 2010

Protected: Fucking Bitch

Using and abusing a submissive woman isn’t about hating women, but, as Marc says, sometimes it helps.  That’s a joke, people.

Well, not entirely.

Sometimes a person can be so rude, that fantasies are born. I’m not condoning anger as a motivation for actual abuse or rape, but fantasies are what they are.

In my business — the real stuff with my company, not the blog confessions and whoring on the phone I’m required to do to please my Masters — there are some uptight, stuck-up bitchy women who motivate men to fantasies of fucking the shit of them to put the women in their place.

Of course, if you add in the perceptions that many men have about women there are lots more men who feel this way.

There is a certain misogyny involved in men who just can’t (or won’t) tolerate a female boss, women with more money, females who wield more power in the spheres individual men would like to control; but there are also honest to goodness real bitches who, monied or not themselves, act like gold diggers and reject men for not being well-endowed enough in terms of wealth — men’s wallets must be this thick/high to get on this ride.

In my work, I run into so many of these women — especially at events. It’s amazing the number of women who are mindful of their manners at their day jobs realizing that anyone could be a client or customer — or refer one — but the minute these women attend a golf outing, a cocktail party after convention hours, a fund raising event, etc., they become the personification of snobby bitch.

I don’t think human decency should take any time off — and I’m not just saying that as a submissive, either. But some of these women are just plain bitches and their fit-to-be-tied tirades inspire the Dom in any man.

To illustrate such an example, I’m confessing events which occurred at an event just last fall.

A typical blond bitch at our table was making horrible denigrating comments about the service staff at the hotel.  The waiter who had the misfortune of serving our table was doing his best to bite his tongue and keep a professional attitude during all of this, despite her eyeball rolls and nasty attitude.  At one point, though, he was, in the blonde’s opinion, very slow in retrieving her requested drink — and of bringing the wrong drink.  She had indeed ordered the white wine spritzer he had brought, but she insisted she’d ordered a carafe of white wine. And boy did she have a bitch fit.

She shoved her chair back and said way-too loudly how stupid and slow the staff was, that they must all be tired from swimming to this country. Then she turned to the waiter, arched her eyebrows, and — honest to god — she threatened him with being fired and deportation if he didn’t bring her the carafe of whine within two minutes.  And she raised her watch to let him know she was timing him.

He obviously had to be struggling to remain professional, but he smiled and turned on his heel to go to the bar.  Everyone at the table was stunned — except for the blonde who babbled on and on about how he’d better fetch quickly.  For professional reasons, I wasn’t able to do anything more than give the blonde  more than a disapproving glance and avoid conversation with her by speaking to others at hour table.

When the waiter returned (in the required time), she accepted the carafe and then waved him away like an annoying fly.  Amazingly the waiter kept his composure and asked the table if anyone needed anything else.

I gave what I’d hoped was a sympathetic and apologetic smile to the mistreated waiter and said, “No, thank you.”  No one else made any other requests, and the waiter left.

Blackie felt so horrible, that he left the table and went to talk to the waiter.  I assumed he’d give him a big tip too.  But what I didn’t know was that Blackie’s tip included more than some cash.

Later on, back in our hotel room, Blackie and I talked about the bitchy blonde. I asked him how it went when he went to tip the waiter.

It seems the waiter, full of righteous anger and pride over his shabby treatment, had not taken my smile as I had intended; he read it full of condescension. As soon as Blackie discovered this, he made no attempts to correct it but instead egged the man on.

“Why would you do that?!” I asked, horrified.

“Because if he thinks you’re a bitch too, we can help make it up to him.”

The sinking sensation in my gut held me silent while I waited for Blackie to explain.

“What better way to get back at a stuck-up bitch than to fuck the shit out of her.” He said it as a statement, not a question, and as he walked towards me the sinking sensation in my stomach grew.

Blackie stood before me and reached out to tenderly tuck a stray strand of my hair behind my ear before making announcement. “So, what we’re going to do, my love, is let he and his friends have their way with you.”

My eyes and mouth rounded in surprise. Friends? Plural? Strangers? Use me? But I was too shocked to actually form any words.

“In a few minutes, my dear, I’ll be escorting you to the favorite watering hole of our poor beleaguered waiter, where you will serve him and a few of his friends who have suffered similarly. A public service to help men get back at all those bitches. And, yes, before you ask, you will be serving more than beers to assuage their mocked manhood. If I were you, I’d expect a general invasion of your privacy.”

And that’s how I found myself serving seven members of the hotel staff later that night.  The full details of this are for Member Masters only.

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Monday, March 22nd, 2010

Can There Be Limitless Limits?

Saynine’s This Isn’t Play. . . BDSM and Rape has much to think about — for me and anyone else interested in rough sex, exploring power exchange, etc.

However when does a violated limit become rape? Is it rape if someone expresses a limit against ejaculating on their face and it is violated? If someone is bound and pissed on after negotiating no watersports? Being called a filthy cunt when Humiliation has been excluded? When is an exceeded limit rape? My arrogance tells me always, however I wonder if I have, or could ever unintentionally dip a toe over a foul line. Am I then guilty of moral or criminal violation? I simply do not know.

I’ve put my consent in Blackie’s hands, but now that He has turned that over to Marc as well these issues of limits continue to pop up.

Some would say that our “play” has gone too extreme by virtue of my consent being given over to another; others would say it went too far when the one I give my consent to passed it along to another. I’ve struggled with this myself, this difficulty in balancing fantasy and desires with safety and practical real life matters… Playing with what is hot and feeling like you may just be burned — and it’s not easy to walk away from because it’s so intoxicating.

The basis of my foundational relationship with Blackie — the one that everyone at our marriage ceremony saw — is still love and respect. But within and around this is a fundamental power exchange which, while mainly regulated to “the bed room,” is nearly inseparable. To pretend otherwise is to be an idiot. And I am not an idiot. (Being a submissive no more equals being an idiot than being a Master equals being intelligent; don’t let anyone convince you otherwise.)

The questions and issues presented in Saynine’s post are things we mentally chew on here — on a daily basis. And we talk about them as we can articulate them. Along with the knowledge that others are exploring such things too, what’s been most helpful for me in reading Saynine’s post and the comments is the ability to move outside of my own situation, my own complicated emotions, and look at things more intellectually.

Sometimes the pure and simple “principal of the thing” attitude goes a long way.

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Tuesday, November 10th, 2009

The Gift, Explained

Some of you likely don’t care so much about this conversation which occurred after Marc left — you’d prefer I’d get on to the parts of the story in which my body is used and abused. But I think it’s important to share some of the realities of such BDSM fantasies. Not so you “believe me,” but so you understand what risks there are here… And why Blackie was willing to risk them.

Any relationship fights against boredom, but with BDSM relationships, there are often times when couples need to consider just how far they can go — and whether or not they should. Some fantasies are probably best left as fantasies; either reality will never ever live up to them, or the dangers outweigh the gifts. But how can you tell which are which? And when you are in a relationship — even one in which a partner, like myself, has given their control over their intimate sexual lives over to their Master — the two of you must either A) agree or B) the Master must bear the weight of decisions which may ruin or end the relationship. So yes, Blackie had put much thought into this seemingly ‘fast’ decision.

Blackie and I had, several times, discussed his fantasies of having me serve others at his command. His concerns were health & safety. My concerns were that by allowing others to use me, the door was opened for him to play with others. And we both worried about the possible risks to our relationship that would obviously exist outside our sex lives.

So, after Marc left, Blackie turned his attentions to me. He didn’t release me from my position — nor did he remove the ball gag — while he told me his plans. (I bet every husband has wanted to keep his wife his silent captive audience while he broke discomforting news to her, but in this case, I suppose it was really the only way he could be sure he was heard.)

“I’ve been thinking about this a very long time, Pinkie,” he began. “I know you have questions, concerns, but let me assure you that I’ve given this a lot of thought. Not just masturbatory thought — though that’s been delicious — but I’ve thought about our relationship as well… I suppose it began last year, during the golf circuit, when I saw Carmen bitching to hotel staff and I saw how those men looked at her… I toyed with offering them you in her place — and knowing how they’d looked at you, how they assumed you were the same sort of rich bitch as she, I knew they’d delight in taking their frustrations out on you — but there are health and safety concerns. I racked my brain, trying to work out how to create such scenes, how to make you serve me & my whims by serving others — and others you had no feelings for but would still see again, and so be humiliated.”

“And then it hit me; I didn’t need to look so far away — I had someone in my backyard that was drooling for such an opportunity. Marc. And along with testing your love and our agreement, along with the fun of training this novice, I would have the pleasure of using & exhausting you as never before. Now when I leave town, you’ll have your own temporary Master, you’ll play by his rules. All I needed to do was get a clean bill of health — and as his employer, that would be a snap. So I hired him. I hired him for me, for you, for us. By hiring him, he can easily travel with us on my business trips too. Because you love me, your training has been somewhat easy… It’s easy to submit to someone you love — but someone you dislike, don’t respect? Someone who by this point, has no illusions about his feelings for you — he just wants to use you, put you in your place, humiliate you. And I get to watch it, control it, hell, even orchestrate situations and conditions neither of you have thought of yet.”

“I know you are probably flattered at this point,” he mocked me, fully aware that I was nowhere near sold on the idea, let alone excited by it, “But you may be worried about Marc’s loyalty… Will he keep his mouth shut when and where needed? Of course he will. Not only does his salary & resume depend upon it, but he hungers to punish you. And his need to punish you, this bitch who rejected him, has only intensified his deep desire to explore BDSM — and who better to learn from?”

He leaned in, trailing his fingers over my bare breast, and continued, a fire bright in his eyes. “And such a pretty bit of meat to play with, abuse, and learn — and make mistakes — on!”

“All for free — no, all that and to be paid for it? No, Marc has nothing to gain from overstepping the rules.”

“And we, you & I, we have plenty to gain from this.”

At this point Blackie gently lifted me forward and freed my arms. I briskly rubbed them while I avoided his gaze. “Look at me.” I refused for a second, but before he could repeat himself I looked him squarely, defiantly in the eyes. “I’ll remove the gag now, but you will say nothing. Just get yourself ready for bed. We have company to entertain early tomorrow. And you should really save that silly prideful anger of yours for tomorrow’s play — I have a feeling it will be a long day, Pinkie dear.”

With that he said goodnight, ordered me to sleep on the sofa (so that my tossing & turning wouldn’t bother him), and went up to bed.

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Tuesday, June 16th, 2009

Protected: Birthday Spanking — And Fuck In The Tub

For my birthday last year, Blackie gave me a sound spanking — far more than the traditional “one for each year plus one to grow on.” Then he soaped me up in the tub and fucked me from behind.

I don’t know what he’ll give me when I turn 24 (on Sunday!) — but I do know what he’s giving you *wink*

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Saturday, June 13th, 2009

Protected: Blackie Fucking My Tits

Two nice photos of my tits in action.

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Wednesday, May 20th, 2009

Protected: Not Just Any Furious; Bitch Wife Furious

Blackie was quite pleased with himself for what he called his “Stay In School, Kids!” Public Service Announcement, but now that the threat was passed, I was furious.

Not just any furious; bitch wife furious.

“What the hell, Blackie,” I snapped at him, stuffing my tits back into my bra. “I could have been raped, we could have been hurt, robbed or killed–”

I was met with Blackie’s uproarious laughter, but continued my tirade anyway. “Hey, two nicely dressed business folks from out of town gettin’ down in an alley? What easy marks–”

“Get over it, Pinkie, they were kids.”

“And so then you decide to give them a lewd show? A misogynistic sex show?!

“Oh come on now,” he laughed. Then after a brief pause during which I fumed, he said, “You loved it, you slut.”

My fear had already turned to anger, but his accusation made me get really angry. “You’re an ass,” was all I spat at him, riding in silence the rest of the way to our hotel.

At the hotel, I sailed past him in an Ice Princess freeze-out, heading to our room. Sure, he was just a few strides behind me, but I was smug in the knowledge that he was forced to walk in my icy wake.

Once I got into the hotel room, I kicked my shoes off and headed for the bathroom — but before I could get there, Blackie grabbed a handful of my hair and yanked me onto the bed. Before I could even gasp, he had me on my back and was on top of me, forcefully ramming his knee between my legs, hiking my skirt up, ripping my blouse open. Even though my clothes were technically on, all my sweet spots were exposed.

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Tuesday, May 19th, 2009

D/s PSA

I’m back, but Blackie isn’t. I had meetings on Monday & Blackie stayed for a conference — possibly some meeting on the coast too. I don’t expect him back until Thursday at the earliest. He has left me, however, with specific instructions & tasks for while he is away…

One of which is to tell you of our Saturday night.

After dinner with some colleagues of his, Blackie drove the rental car downtown. I thought he was looking for some bars, but he pulled into an alley and told me to position myself up against one of the old brick walls — back arched, ass up and out, while he stuck his hand beneath my skirt and rubbed along my pussy lips. Assuring I was nice and wet (not to mention a bit buzzed from the wine at dinner), he ordered me to get on my knees & suck his cock.

I knelt before him in the dirty alley while he took his cock out of his suit pants. I had just begun sucking his cock when we heard voices. I stopped and looked in the direction the voices came from — Blackie told me to keep sucking while he turned his head toward the intruders and taunted, “Like what you see boys?”

Out of the shadows at the end of the alley were a group of three men — kids, just about. They stopped dead in their tracks & just looked at the man in a dark suit getting his dick serviced by some chick on her knees.

I was nervous, but kept on sucking Blackie’s cock.

One of the men walked forward for a closer look — the other two moved quickly to catch up and remain a pack.

I don’t think they knew if I was in trouble or not. And if I was, maybe they weren’t the type to help anyway. Such thoughts distracted me — at least enough that Blackie knew I wasn’t focused entirely on his cock. “Suck it, slut,” he said impatiently before returning his attention to the men.

“Bet you punks wished you had a slut like this, don’t you?” he gloated.

One of the boys nodded. The one in the front, the leader, I guess, just folded his arms and firmly stood his ground.

“Pop your tits out, Pinkie,” Blackie instructed, “Let ‘em have a nice look.”

I stopped sucking and looked up at him — what was he thinking?! When he didn’t even look at me, something about his set jawline told me I should just do as I was told. So I silently unbuttoned my blouse, lifted each breast out from its black lace bra cup and then, cautiously but dutifully, went back to sucking Blackie’s cock.

The boys watched, one of them let out a whistle, tents forming in their jeans.

“Yeah, she’s a real cock slut,” Blacke bragged. “Here, let me show you…” he turned to look down at me before continuing, “Back up against the wall, bitch.”

I scrambled to my feet and returned to the wall again. Back arched, ass up & out. Putting my back to the group of men was frightening, but at least they couldn’t see my face this way.

I felt Blackie’s hand on my ass, sliding its way down to the hem of my short skirt, then hiking it up exposing two thin black garters running down my bare backside above black stockings. Then with the aplomb & flourish of a sideshow barker he called the boys in for a closer look. “Come see, boys.” Then he slid his fingers along my wet folds for a few seconds before plunging them into my pussy before holding up his hand, showing off his shiny fingers, slick with my juices. “Mmm,” he said as he sucked his fingers clean in his mouth.

If the boys made a noise I didn’t hear it over the sound of my blood pounding in my temples.

I didn’t turn my head, but I heard (or felt) the men move closer. Inside I was praying to Blackie, “Let’s just leave, please!” But Blackie was in no rush. I turned my head to plead at him with my eyes but Blackie just grinned at me and then, still grinning, turned to the group and said, “I’d love to let you try it yourselves, boys, but I don’t want to be criminally responsible for underage boys getting serviced in an alley.”

Just past Blackie’s shoulder I could see at least two of the boys fumbling for wallets — presumably to show ID. Blackie laughed and dismissed them with a wave, “Punks like you have had those fake IDs for years.”

Then he half-turned to me, slapped my bare bottom and said, “Get in the car, Pinkie, we’ll have to find someplace a bit more private – or at least without minors drooling about.”

The boys moaned and aw-manned while I quickly & wordlessly walked to the car and got in. “Show’s over, boys,” Blackie said as he joined me in the car and turned the key in the ignition. Just as we passed the boys, he pressed the button lowering the window on the rental car’s driver’s side and said, “If you want your own hot slutty bitch to service you anywhere, stay in school boys.” And then he drove off.

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