Soft, heavy & tender, I hold them in my hands, presenting them as instructed. My mind is in a similar situation…
Protected: The Anticipation Of Presenting My Breasts
August 24th, 2010
Tags: big breasts, nipples, phone sex availability, serving, sub space is divine
Protected: Tips For Using & Abusing Pinkie’s Tits
August 24th, 2010
Since you’re Master Members, I thought I’d share with you some tips on how to make the most of Pinkie’s tits, the first being that she hates having her breasts called “tits.” So naturally, that’s how I refer to them all the time.
More than 10 tips for making the most of Pinkie’s big fat tits below the cut.
Tags: big breasts, nipple, nipples, pain as pleasure, pain not pleasure, rough tit play, tit fuck, tools and toys, torture
Exploiting A Lingerie Obsession
August 20th, 2010
Has she used the credit card without permission? Spent too much on her lingerie obsession?
Or has he simply not decided what she should wear yet, so she must wait, tied spread out like some giant paperdoll, for him to place various pieces on her until he finds just the right thing that fits his current mood…
Or maybe she’s just a prop, a pretty part of the clothing rack, waiting to serve and amuse her Mistress… The ideas are nearly endless, really.
But wait she does.
With nearly as many possibilities running through her mind as are in mine now.
Tags: bound, lingerie, lipstick submissives (tm), tied up
On Why Man Invented Tools
August 16th, 2010
At lunch with Marc, the conversation turns to a discussion about what separates Man from animals, which invariably brought up the topic of the invention of tools; this is what Marc had to say:
A woman has so many holes, and a man only one dick — yet he wants them all. Rather than feel overwhelmed or even defeated by the choices he must leave behind (if only for that instant), man invented tools to explore, exploit, claim. That’s when man truly had dominion, knew he had no limits, knew he could reach for the stars. Everything was within reach, was his for the claiming; he only had to grab whatever was around and use it, adapt it maybe, to get what he wanted.
Tags: holes, tools and toys
Protected: His Executive Desk Toy
August 16th, 2010
When Blackie spotted this photo on Saturday, he called me on the phone, gave me a shopping list, and ordered me to bring everything to his office within an hour.
No Use Crying Over Spilt Milk
August 14th, 2010
First you clean it up; the punishment — and the crying — comes later.
Tags: lessons for bitches, pain not pleasure, power play, pussy lips, serving
Protected: The Making Of A Pain Slut
August 14th, 2010
I’m often asked if I really get off on pain. The truth is now I do — at least to the kinds of punishments Blackie prefers to give — but it wasn’t always that way.
I’ve always loved a lot of breast play (my nipples are red-hot express lines direct to my cunt), but spanking, paddling, clamps, clothespins, hot wax, rope burn, slaps, etc. — on my breasts or anywhere — and maintaining difficult positions was all definitely more pain than pleasure in the beginning.
While Blackie and I quickly discovered that I naturally became aroused by his inherent male powers over me, actual pain wasn’t so readily overcome by demonstrations of masculinity. Not even when combined with my desire to please him.
But Blackie knew just what to do.
As I’ve mentioned before, many D/s relationships are based on a submissive’s dependence. Not only simple acts of comfort or kindness, but a cleverly calculated combination of pleasure and denial.
For example, rubbing my pussy while spanking, paddling or cropping my ass, sends my brain a flood of conflicting input… Am I feeling pleasure or pain? Which am I feeling more of? It was horribly confusing…
But Blackie also used denial to make sure my brain and body were led from confusion and rescued — he made sure that the only time I experienced sexual pleasure was when I was experiencing pain at his hand.
Sure, I could suck his cock and get him off; but I never felt his hands or mouth or cock on me unless he was also hurting me in his desired fashion.
While he may have focused on one sort of pain or use at a time, the method was the same: pain always came with pleasure and pleasure never came without pain.
Until I began to have sort of Pavlov’s dog response. Eventually I learned to connect the pain (as in our earlier example) of being cropped with the euphoria of arousal and eventual orgasm.
No cropping, no coming; no pain, no gain. By George, my brain and body finally got it!
So much so, that when I was simply told to assume the position for a cropping, my cunt would drool! I might also be trembling with fear and crying in anticipation of the pain; but I was wet too. Even the next day’s bruises, welts, and sore spots became aphrodisiacs… Memories of what had been done, to me and by me; how I’d been undone.
Tags: BDSM relationships, crop, no touching, orgasm denial, pain as pleasure, pain not pleasure, Pinkie and Blackie history, serving, slave training, spanking
Orgasm Troubles
August 14th, 2010
Some Q & A from your favorite piece of T & A; this time a round-up of Member Masters questions about orgasms…
When you’re under a No Orgasm Order and another Master insists you come, what do you do? …Is it the first order you obey, or what?
My number one order is to do as Blackie wishes and he says my purpose is to serve all my Masters, so I’m to satisfy both directives; obviously this is not possible…
Like many of my tasks which are (or at least seem) conflicting, I do my best and take my punishments for those things that I fail.
In the case of No Orgasms, if I please the one who gave me that order, I then take my punishment from the one who I failed to please by not having an orgasm; if I have the orgasm(s), I please that Master and take my deserved punishment from the one whose rule I’ve broken.
And then, in any case, I suffer Blackie’s punishment as well.
But aren’t you then choosing which Master to obey — at least by taking the punishment you fear less?
Honestly, I can try that, but there’s two things wrong with that theory…
One, Masters know (and Member Masters are given) the ways to manipulate and break me… Most of my regular Masters — at least those who care to have me orgasm — know how to take or force my orgasms against my will.
Two, any failure to please one Master means I have broken Blackie’s Golden Rule: to serve and please any Master to whom I have been given. The consequences for that are not pleasant. So even if I could try to choose the lesser of two evils, I’m outnumbered and outmatched on all fronts (and backs lol).
So, in all honesty, I’m simply living in the moment, trying to do the best I can — and dreading the outcomes for failure.
Does that mean an order not to orgasm will automatically be broken?
No, not at all!
I do try to do my best, including informing Blackie, all Member Masters, and any Masters I might be serving during that No Orgasm Order time frame. While individual Master motivations and desires differ, some prefer to respect one Masters rule. Also Blackie himself may choose to assist such an order by enforcing it at home and by limiting my service elsewhere — and some Masters who insist upon a No Orgasm Order will also compensate Blackie for ensure such orders are guaranteed.
…But even under the most strident supervised masturbation and monitored use, I am a greedy slut who seeks a release and can become so over-worked from all her use and play that I’ll suddenly, humiliatingly, find myself in the throes or orgasm. It’s happened from just breast play on numerous occasions. (However it happens, I can assure you that I am punished for my sluttiness!)
So it’s never a sure thing, and that’s why denied orgasms and No Orgasm Orders are so difficult and even painful.
What’s worse: Being ordered to have no orgasms or having forced orgasms?
The worst is disappointing a Master and, therefore by having disobeyed Blackie’s Golden Rule, disappointed him.
Personally speaking, however…
Both suck. But, in general, forced orgasms are the worst — unless the No Orgasm Order is longer than a week… Then it’s really dependent upon everything else I’ve been tasked to do during that time.
I’m not trying to be evasive; it’s all very subjective and situational.
I don’t understand how forced orgasms can be such a big deal — I’m not even sure there can really be such a thing! Who doesn’t want an orgasm?!
Orgasms are intensely personal things. To have one taken from you when you do not want to give it is an extremely violating and usually humiliating experience.
Plus most forced orgasm experiences are not simply a matter of taking or forcing one. …The combination of multiple intense humiliating violating orgasms is exhausting on every level and even physically painful.
Truth be told the whole topic of how orgasms are taken, what happens when orgasms are denied — how orgasms have and are still used to condition and control me is very very complicated…
The details of that will likely have to be broken down into multiple posts in the future. Stay tunned, as they say *wink*
Tags: Forced Orgasms, orgasm denial, serving, supervised masturbation
A Quick Confession
August 13th, 2010
Messaged to a NiteFlirt Master:
I can tell you that as soon as you released me from the No Orgasm Order, I crept down to the basement and masturbated myself to several, including squirting. Since I am such a messy whore, my Master makes me masturbate on the floor in the basement, like an animal, in the dark. And I’m such a slut, I do.
Tags: dirty whore, humiliation, masturbation
