One of the most difficult things for me to to is to suddenly masturbate — especially under supervision.
Maybe it’s a girlie thing, feeling so uncomfortable performing something so intimate and private under such scrutiny… Fearing what I’ll look like, what faces I’ll make, while he’s not preoccupied with his own pleasure, his own experience, is humbling to say the least.
But it’s also the suddenness of it all.
Washing dishes, coming home from work, putting the groceries away — and then, BAM! the order.
“Strip to your bra and panties, get on your knees and masturbate.”
This is unlike other orders. Orders to suck his cock, to assume a position for him to enter me, etc., I simply submit to his needs; my pleasure is irrelevant. But to summon up “the mood” and perform for him, with all the disquiet in my head — knowing he knows me and my body better than I do, and so I cannot fake a thing — well, this is not easy.
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Tags: humiliation, lingerie, power play, supervised masturbation
