September 2nd, 2010
As I’ve stated, supervised masturbation is difficult for me. Apparently I have performance anxiety.
This is one reason why when we travel together, Blackie will bring in a total stranger and order me to masturbate in front of them.
Sometimes Blackie will stand behind the seated man, who’s often masturbating while watching me. Other times, Blackie will stand behind me so that I cannot even find him with my eyes and find some respite there; a few times Blackie’s even left the room entirely.
But the worst is when Blackie brings in one of his business associates to supervise my masturbation — because then I know someday I’ll likely meet him again, and that man’s knowing, leering, smug smile will torment me.
Animated gif of Ultra Violett masturbating by Fuckmaker; found via S & M = Smoke & Mirrors.
Tags: humiliation, serving, supervised masturbation
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September 1st, 2010
Normally when I shop — or point out what I’m shopping for — it’s either pink or black, but this photo has inspired something different…
The contrast of her pink puffy parts straining against and swelling around the bright blue ropes looks so pretty — and he hasn’t even laid a hand on her yet! It has me shopping for blue bondage rope.
Tags: bound, pink and black shopping, pussy lips, rope, tied up, tools and toys
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September 1st, 2010
This weekend Blackie and I are celebrating a personal anniversary: the first time we made love.
If you think I’ve titled this post out of the age-old female complaint that men are not romantics, that they forget such things as anniversaries, au contraire!
Blackie remembers everything.
Tags: BDSM relationships, no touching, phone sex availability, power play
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August 31st, 2010
Marc has trained me, like a dog, to follow his commands; these are a few of them.
Tags: humiliation, serving
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August 31st, 2010
While there is, I am told, quite the delight in cropping, canning, slapping bound breasts and watching them bounce, I can tell you that there is worse…
Having your bound, swollen, hard boobs placed on another surface and given rousing smacks convinces you that they will, indeed, burst.
Blackie and Marc like to enjoy the best of both worlds. First they’ll have me stand and enjoy them bare and bouncing from the hits they take. Then they’ll bound them tight and watch their limited bouncing. And then they’ll have me kneel, placing my bound breasts tits on another surface to continue their abuse. This allows them to hold me by my hair and control my head too…
When they tire of that — or at last when they realize they must release my breasts from the ropes or risk permanent damage, they will untie the ropes and sit on the bed.
I then must lube up their cocks and give them my sore, red, swollen, aching tits to fuck.
There hasn’t been a time that the grip of their hands tightly wrapping my breasts around their cocks hasn’t brought me to tears… Their fingers always managing to anchor themselves to the most sensitive parts… The thrusting of their hard dicks ravages the tender abused sides of my breasts… Blackie says I cry so much, my tears could be the lube!
(If only one of them is present, they are gentlemen who take turns fucking my tits — which greatly lengthens my suffering.)
There are many variations, of course; the devices used to whip my breasts, the addition of clamps and clothespins for my nipples, etc. …Their delight is only limited by their imaginations and passions (which are limitless), and the amount of abuse the human body can take before permanent damage occurs. But the latter is only a challenge to the former desires.
Call me, and I can tell you about the variations — or you can tell me what you like to do to abuse big breasts…
Image from Amateur Tied; found via Rope Bondage, via a link from Klaudia’s Rough Phone Sex.
Tags: big breasts, bound, cane, crop, hair pulling, pain not pleasure, rough tit play, tied up, tit fuck, torture
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August 31st, 2010
Every morning I’m with Marc, he likes to start off his day by frosting my face — after I’ve already done my makeup, so I have to start all over again.
Tags: cock sucking, humiliation, lessons for bitches, power play, serving
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August 30th, 2010
One of the most difficult things for me to to is to suddenly masturbate — especially under supervision.
Maybe it’s a girlie thing, feeling so uncomfortable performing something so intimate and private under such scrutiny… Fearing what I’ll look like, what faces I’ll make, while he’s not preoccupied with his own pleasure, his own experience, is humbling to say the least.
But it’s also the suddenness of it all.
Washing dishes, coming home from work, putting the groceries away — and then, BAM! the order.
“Strip to your bra and panties, get on your knees and masturbate.”
This is unlike other orders. Orders to suck his cock, to assume a position for him to enter me, etc., I simply submit to his needs; my pleasure is irrelevant. But to summon up “the mood” and perform for him, with all the disquiet in my head — knowing he knows me and my body better than I do, and so I cannot fake a thing — well, this is not easy.
Image via Sex & Submission.
Tags: humiliation, lingerie, power play, supervised masturbation
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August 27th, 2010
Back when Blackie & I were dating — in that early stage of infatuation & insecurity — I teased him with an observation about the other women I’d seen him out with. Most of them were members of the itty-bitty-tittie-committee, and I, well, I have 36Es. So my teasing was as much about being reassured that he found me attractive, even if I feared I wasn’t his usual “type.”
I distinctly remember saying to him, “Well, you clearly subscribe to the ‘More than a mouthful is wasted’ philosophy… So I guess my ample charms are, if not an actual waste, wasted on you.”
I also distinctly remember his reply. “I assure you they are desired in equally ample proportion — and they certainly will not go to waste.”
At the time, my ego delightfully wrapped it around me as warm reassurance that he found me sexy. But now, I’ve come to understand that he meant that literally: No part of my breasts shall be wasted, no small space shall go without it’s attentions, use & abuse.
Tags: big breasts, Pinkie and Blackie history, rough tit play
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August 25th, 2010
Sucking his cock while he reads the paper or watches television is so demeaning…
It’s like you’re just a tool carrying out some perfunctory task, an everyday appliance doing an everyday boring routine thing that simply must be done.
What I do may be pleasurable, but I won’t be looked at, let alone given a smile for a job well done. Hell, even his hand gets looked at every now and then when he masturbates, but while I service him like this, I might as well be the coffee pot or the radio.
Like those appliances, I’ll only be noticed when I’m not working right — and then I’d probably get the old horizontal-slap or a kick too.
PS This photo isn’t of me. I don’t even know where it came from; if you do, let me know so I can properly credit it!
Tags: cock sucking, humiliation, no touching, power play, serving
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